Are you in a trauma loop?  Here’s how to tell.

When in trauma, you feel on guard for the next problem, incident, event or situation (dangerous or not).  You might be unaware of how often you unconsciously look for a problem, or wait for the next shoe to drop.  Do you find yourself always a little on edge?  Are you sleeping well or does your mind work overtime?  Are you finding ways to zone out with an addiction so you can protect yourself from painful feelings?  When in a loop, it becomes so automatic that it develops into a habit you didn’t see coming…or staying.

After a big block of intense and difficult years, I couldn’t unwind or relax.  You would think that when it was over, I would reset back to normal.  Instead, I numbed out with sugar to keep overwhelming emotions at bay.  I turned to sweets to feel good at least some of the time only to crash and sleep.  I truly didn’t know how to cope with such severe and devastating feelings.  My “best of intention” friends, gave me advice.  I couldn’t do what they suggested, and all I wanted to do was scream, SHUT UP!!!!  They couldn’t understand why I couldn’t take their advice and I could feel their increasing frustration.

Dreams were working overtime too.  I was a mess and not because of anything I’d done wrong.  How did I get those awful, painful, and reoccurring triggers to stop?  I tapped.

I’m not sure what would’ve happened to me had a not learned about energy therapies.  I could not WILL this pattern away.  I couldn’t stop it by repeating affirmations, thinking differently, meditating, or journaling.  Heck, I couldn’t even focus long enough to DO those things.  I couldn’t be quiet since I was trying to drown out thoughts with noise.

I was also so physically exhausted that exercise seemed like another burden.  Believe me when I tell you, I was a mess.  This stuck energy got really locked in place after my support system and loved ones died after intense illnesses.  I found myself completely alone without my parents, my sweetheart Ray, and I had to pull away from sibling jealousy that was working overtime!  I had no children and no pets so when I say I went through this alone, I mean it.  This is not a sob story though, so read on.

I could sit, listen and learn.  I tapped along with tapping programs I’d purchased along with internet freebies both day and night.  Tapping videos seemed to be my “friend”, and helper when I was alone with all these feelings.  I had trauma and PTSD moments that required outside coaching help, but I started to change my energy.

I listened, studied, and learned and became an expert.  In the process, I cleared out old modeling, beliefs, and emotions.  Talk about a system reboot.  I learned many different energy styles, and tips.  Was it fun?  NO!!!  HELL NO!!!!

The sweet part of my story is that I started my tapping business, healed old wounds, and got in touch with my True Authentic Power!  Though I still had my struggles, I saw client miracles regularly.  They kept me in the hope that the same was possible for me too!  I have facilitated clients to change their lives by releasing what is unwanted, and creating new life dreams.  I’m excited about my next chapter!

The technique is easy to learn but can take expertise to get around walls that don’t seem to be moving.  I learned many of those skills and put them into products!

The point of this story is to tell you that you are not crazy or lazy because you are stuck.  You are in fear and protection.  How long you are willing to suffer or push down old painful memories that drag you down, is up to you.  I wanted a better way for myself!  I wish the same for you!   If you want help…